It has taken me months to put my thoughts together on India. And still I remain annoyingly confused. Sometimes I loved the time I spent there, sometimes I think how awful, and mostly I remain apathetic, with no emotions at all. When people ask me about my experiences I tend to unload a whole bunch of word vomit as if I can’t even process what happened in that month. India is brutal. It is hot, crowded, forceful, and above all else aggressive. The noise, the people, the heat, and the style of life quickly begin to affect you. India is also beautiful, filled with art, colors, music, and food.
Here is what I can tell you- we spent three days in Calcutta and I took about six pictures. Obviously this is representative of the complete shock I experienced upon arrival. India is perhaps the only time in my life I have experienced true culture shook. What is more shocking is I didn’t realize just how shocked I was, until I left. Arrival in the country leaves you completely engulfed in sensory overload. India makes you profoundly question things, but not in the way I thought. I did not become spiritual, or suddenly a deeply empathetic person. What did happen is I realized how hard life is. How unfair things are in the world and above else, how much of our own suffering is inflicted by circumstance. I became grateful for all that I have, and mostly for all that America provides. If you know me you know how much of a turn around this is for me. I am quick to complain about the indignities in my country -the unfairness of the education system, or the prison system, the ridiculousness and hypocrisy in the way we behave. But leaving India I realized, America, the world’s largest wealthy nation, is a-okay. Change happens slowly, but that’s fine. People aren’t dying of malaria in America, or being run over almost daily in the road. We have trash collection, and accountability. India is where you see all the evil and goodness in the human spirit all bagged up in to a two second clip. It’s a lot, and it was draining.
I’ll be back with all the amazing photos of Jaipur, Udaipur, Goa, ect.